You can do all sorts of displacement activities, but eventually the thing you hide from catches you. And always when you're caught off guard. For the past few weeks I've thought about decorating bedrooms, crafting, gardens, babies and holidays. I've made jam, lavender hearts, aprons, notebooks and wire hearts; taken photos of all and sundry - even had some of them developed to give to other people and some displayed in frames.
Then, this morning after finishing a good book with a cup of tea brought upstairs by best beloved, I walked out onto the landing and saw the truth of the matter: three empty bedrooms. Best to get outside and look at the garden.
Even the sight of brown leaves helped to dispel the moment and bring back a sense of calmness. And just as well as it's now pouring from the heavens. What also helped was looking through some of the great design orientated blogs out there - such as Moopy and Me (nest studio).